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Subject: also!

i went to elly.org just now to see if random email would pop up that inspired me and holy fuck.

this is what popped up:

>From jmartin@golden.net
Mon Nov 6 05:50:05 2000
Date: Sun, 7 Feb 1999 17:59:16 -0500
From: Jeff Martin
To: elly@saint.net
Subject: do i know her just to hate what she does?

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Your friends are extremely lucky.

If I have a friend like you who doesn't write it down, how do I know? What do I do?

...

okay, now, for one: the subject line is a line taken from a palace music song, "viva ultra." a song that has been running through my head nonstop of late.

but lately i've also given a lot of thought to the fact that lots and lots of people email me almost starstruck and often infatuated and i very rarely am able to take it seriously because i think: "okay if you actually knew me, you'd have no idea that i thought these thoughts, said these things. well you might but not right away, not if you saw me in a bar. point being: if i were at a club with you, you'd spend all night talking about how the girl in pigtails was SO FUCKING CUTE and you'd ignore me, and you should really fucking think about that, just THINK about that, for just a second, because maybe you haven't."